Reminiscence

Monday was Uncle David’s birthday so Aunty Susan bought that small little cake for him. And guess what , that cake is like 80+ Bucks. Damn ex -.- Really very small and is make of Dark Chocolate. That day is the very first time i eat so much of Dark chocolate , damn bitter ! So lovely (:

Yesterday was singing day Hahaa ! Bao was so happy she got her Zara’s jacket. Kiddy luh you ! That jacket quite nice (: To her is Freaking Nice because is her baby gave her de. So sweeeeeeeeet ~ hahaa ! Shall sing again next time !!! Faster faster ! another K session !

Gonna wait for SAT TO COME !

Went to Pulau Ubin on sat . Morning meet at 11 and took bus 29 to changi and off to the island wahahahaa . Went cycling and that day was burning hot ! Bao and me were like old lady -.- When going up the slope , we cannot make it. We got down de bic and push all the way , when going down slope is heaven for us

Went to the wetland and took pictures and the scenery there was very very beautiful (: And must thank Bao for tanking all the mosquito bites . I pity you !  But nvm luh. Once in a blue moon got so many mosquito bites. Hahaa ! Had a wonderful day , Thanks guys

And bao ! when wanna go again !? wahahhahaa

To : Jeremy Wong Jun Jie

Please read it with SERIOUS-NESS , CARE AND CONCERN !

VERY IMPORTANT

Slowly read and den slowly understand and slowly reply me through … Sms ?

I hope hubby in future won’t do anything hurting things towards me. As in like lie and hide things from me. I can tell you straight that inside my heart now is still painful. It really hurts alot. It is so painful that whenever i think of the things you do i will tear non stop. You lie to me too much le. Every single thing that you do and say. I just can’t tolerate my bf lie to me and being with me still can go think of other girls. I can’t tolerate that. In fact no girls can tolerate that .And i don’t like you to call other girls dear or darling or wife. You only can call ur gf that. Others no way. You want can , be single. Okay ?

To you is the same , you like ur gf lie to you ? Go club without tell you and keep it forever or till you find out and den volcano erupt ? And also look at guys and read their blog , profile and want their numbers .I think you will really break with her if she is like that. Not that i want to say myself till very perfect or what , i’m not perfect , nodody is. Just remember this , dont take a person for granted. Especially the ones that really care and love you alot. Cherish before you really regret.

This period i really use smile and laughter to cover up every single thing. You might think that why so sad and still want to be with you. I dunno either . Maybe because i really love you ? I cant answer you. I really love you and please dont let me have the phobia back. I don’t like that feeling. It sucks to the core. Not asking you to change but asking you not to lie and do something that will ” dui bu qi ” me. I mean flirt and hong when you got a girlfriend. But if you are going to tell me that lie and flirt and hong is your character , den i dont need a boyfriend like that. << This must reply me hor ! MUST HOR ! must tell me whether Hong and lie izzit ur character. MUST ! ok (:

” It’s amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces…”

The quote above is really true.

I wish hubby will never lie to me and hide things from me. I dont like it.  Please tell me never in future you will never lie to me ever again. Club i will still let you go provided is someone’s birthday. and please dun use birthday as an excuse so that u can keep going club. But you should know i dun like you go club de. I really HATE you going club. Freaking HATE. ya . You go i will also go de. I wont care u angry anot i say first. deal ? Jiu i really afraid that you will lie to me and say you at home or outside eating but actually you are at club having fun. hmmm or maybe when you go out you never tell me where you going den end up in club. Thats how i feel. . .

And i really really really hope that you are already settle down with this relationship , if not  , i will say the same thing again , be single and go have fun till you are happy and go find another suitable girl. And don’t regret for whatever decision you make (: And Don’t make me lose trust in you hubby. That is all what I’m thinking . . Lying and hiding in a relationship , to me is not a relationship at all.

You can say that you scared i think too much when you tell me you with who or going where , but did you ever think before what if i found out the truth ? what will be my reaction ? how will i feel ? Be honest rather than lie and hide things from me. Who will not jealous ? Everyone does. Ya. . thats all. Aiya whole main point is Dun lie to me , hide things from me and stop hong-ing. Yup.

28 March 2010

不顾一切迁就你

不明白为什么要
那样委屈
眼泪流得不停息

不做你的情人
不需要再担心
担心你会再离我而去

宁愿不做你的情人
收 起我的天真
分你半个吻 . . .

Sigh , when will you understand how i feel ? When will you understand the feeling whereby your girlfriend Flirt with other boys and sweet talk and etc, thats not the main point. Your beloved Gf told her bunch of brothers how fucking bad is you and being so pissed off with you. What is the feeling ? Shiok ? Happy ? Great ? Scolding your gf infront of your brothers you felt good ? What a nice one . . . Behind me you can tell others that next time must clear history and clear inbox and etc etc. Isn’t that lying and hiding ? So what for i being truthful to you when you dont give a damn about me and my feelings ? you hide things from me , delete stuffs , You still dun trust that i believe you and yuru. I’m fine with it . WHy cant you believe that ?! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU !? Is this call relationship !?!?!?!?!? I dont think so. Relationship is not like that. Not hiding and deleting stuffs so that their partner wont know anything ! Thats not call relationship !

Go clubbing and etc can hide from me. Pictures scared to let me know. See whether got un-tag anot. Got post up anot ? So scared for what Break luh. Break le wont scared anymore. Break liao can see your eye candy and etc etc. I fucking pissed off , yes i do. I’m fucking pissed to the max till i wanna scold vulgarities. Hong , flirt , hug what else ?

In the conversation , you somehow said I’m the one who causes you guys to be awkward and You seems to agree with it ! I tired of it. I’m tired of saying it again and again. Sigh . it hurt so deeply that it won’t heal anymore.

It’s amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. that is so true.

不做你的情人 不需要再担心 担心你会再离我而去

宁愿不做你的情人 收起我的天真